It’s all about my blue blue sky…

According to my palm reading, I’m supposed to be a complicated person. And when i really think about it..i think…mayb i am…hehe…I dont even understand myself most of the time…
I really wish that everyone can get along with everyone…which i guess is almost equivalent to world peace…but at the same time…i enjoy watching war movies…really love the part where they plot strategy to outwit their enemy…ahi…

I really try to be a good person..to put other people before myself..but sometimes i really tend to think of myself first..ahi…selfish

I have limitless amount of patience when it comes to my friend and almost no patience when it comes to my family members..really trying to work on that..

I want to become an independent person…someone people can rely on…but most of the time…i depend on other people…

Most of the time i dont even understand what kind of person i am…i’m not really kind, not really selfish, not clever, not stupid, not hardworking, not really lazy, not a believer, not a cynic…ahi…i guess i can go on forever. It just really feels as if i’m nothing…complicated huh…

Had a car accident today…but not to worry…it’s not a serious one…just that another car reversed and banged into my car…william did sound the horn..but too late ady…the car was reversing too fast…ahi…
    anyway…the details aren’t that important…just wanna say thanks to everyone for being there for me and william…special thanks to sweet and kok sun for accompanying us to the police station…and the one i want to thank most is william…for lodging de report…ma fan him oni…eventhough it was my car that got banged it was william that went to all the trouble…even made kok sun, sweet and william missed today’c class…sorry ya…
    if only today was not my unlucky day…mayb wont involve in accident…ahi…mayb it’s the chachos oso…haha…i eat one piece of it oni then kena accident ady…i don think there will be anymore chachos for me in the near future…anyway thanks again and sorry for ma fan u guys today lor =)

What is love?? to say the truth…i really have no idea.. they say that love is the only magical thing that humans are capable of creating…i’m always reading romance novels where the heroine and hero face lots of obstacles and in the end managed to find their happiness in each other…but is there really any such thing as true love?? i really do hope so..in a world that seems so bleak and dark at times…it is the only thing that keeps us going…just look at the number of couples whenever you go out..yes, their relationship may not be that perfect…but i guess everyone’s trying to find their own happily ever after…for all those who have gotten hurt recently in their attempt to find true love…all i can say is STAND UP..NEVER GIVE UP…you never know if the person really meant for you is just around the corner waiting for you as you’ve been waiting for him…after all, without the bitter u’ll never  really appreciate the sweet right??

  When faced with lots of problems… one thing that i have learned is that we have to be calm and collected..never panic…as for every problem there is a solution…and as long as we’re not too choosy regarding the outcome of the solution…you’ll find that no problem is really too big…
  Thanks to my family and friends…for being there for me when i need help and for cheering me up when i’m feeling down the past few weeks…Currently, i’m sick with a cough and sore throat with a fever on the way and I have a test tmrw…but hopefully, i’ll make it through this time too
  Life is wonderful…it does has it’s ugly side sometimes but without it, we won’t really cherish the good times will we? we’ll oni take the good times for granted…that is what us humans like to do…we can’t really help it…so, take the bad with the good…and look things positively and everything will work out…

It seems lately that nothing is going smoothly for me…nothing i do seems to be enough…just when i’ve solved a problem, another comes along…please stop…i’m not sure if i can take it anymore…i’ve been trying to forget my problems…but lately it’s been really hard…i’m really afraid i’ll let people down bcause of my inabilities…really hope i’ll get through this and never again put myself in such a situation again…in the meantime, i hope i’ll b able to rest, forget my worries for a few days and recharge myself  before school reopens and the problems starts knocking again…

     Sometimes, the most simple things in our life makes us happy…simple things that we usually take for granted…things like a cup of hot coffee when it’s cold and raining outside, being able to snuggle into the warm comforts of your own bed when it’s raining outside, being able to take a cold bath when you’ve just been out in the scorching sun and having someone to comfort u when you’re feeling down and lonely…these things can be done by almost everyone and yet at certain times it leaves us feeling warm inside just being able to do these things
     Sometimes, the simplest things in life brings us happiness…Some people spend their life chasing after materialistic things and yet when they’ve found them they find that it is not enough and goes after the next best thing…They spend their life chasing goals after goals ignoring the simple things in life…oh…maybe i don’t really know what i’m saying since we are living in a materialistic world and most people are materialistic…but sometimes, it is important to take a break from the harsh realities of life and just do something simple that will bring you that special warmness in your heart, leaving a small smile on your face and a thought that mayb life is wonderful after all…
     So, what is it that makes you happy? simple things that we take for granted…share them and mayb when we’re feeling a bit lost and unhappy we’ll be able to do it too…

  After our Thai class, we went to sri petaling to eat porridge…sound weird? well, one of the reason is that tieng just had her wisdom tooth pulled out and can’t eat anything that’s too solid if u know what i mean So we went all the way to sri petaling to eat toad porridge…really tasty
  Anyway, after our breakfast we went our seperate ways. I need to go back to ipoh and cause none of my family members were free to give me a ride home i had to take a bus back all alone (my very first time…). Anyway,  i was dropped at the bukit jalil star line station which was right in front of stadium bukit jalil
  When i reached there, i was suddenly swept by a feeling of nostalgia. Still remembering the sounds of laughter and people talking loudly to each other so as to be heard over the crowds that were gathered there for the  commonwealth games 9 years ago…still can’t believe that so many years has gone by. Still remembered how much fun i had there and the excitement of being at the most happening place with my family and relatives…I really had to  control myself so that i did not venture and explore the stadium all by myself…it was really tempting but i managed to pull myself away…hmm…actually i’m still regretting that i did not explore the stadium
  Childhood memories are the sweetest and most memorable and when you least expect it, it will appear in your mind and heart, leaving you happy and mayb a little sad that you had to grow up so fast… but, i guess that’s life. Whether we like it or not, we have to grow up…Anyway,  hope that i will get a chance to go there once again…   :)

Did i made a bad choice choosing to take Thai language for this sem? I hope not but sometimes i really do think that this language is quite impossible to learn in such a short time…Don’t believe me? It has 44 consonants and 21 vowels…and that is only the very basics…even the written words are like an alien language altogether…However, i did have fun learning Thai…especially the speaking part…sawat di: kha
  Anyway, will have to make more effort for this language…especially since we’re having our first test next week…mayb should ask tieng for help…sometimes she really sounds as if she has a natural talent for this language…haha. Hey, mayb we could go to Thai during our sem break…Then we can really use what we’ve learned…hehe…mayb they will evenn give us more discount when we talk in their language…haha…

    I guess my blog sometimes functions as my own mini memoirs…keeping tabs of happy memories collected along the road call life…Today, i’m happy to announce that i have gain lots and lots of fun and happy memories on my 3rd year course night…
   For this memorable day, me and a few of my coursemates have spent many a time in shopping malls, searching and hunting down not only dresses but also accessories…and for those guys who don’t know…there are lots of essential accessories such as bracelets, ear-rings, nacklaces, nail-polish, shoes…etc etc  Anyway, the process was really enjoyable since i do like shopping…hehe
    Starting at 1pm coursemates started arriving for the war that was about to be fought…first to be conquered was our hair…after more than 2 hours all of us had hairstyles like those u’ve seen in movies…we even have a mongolian princess , manchu princess and superstar…all this thanks to felicia and mun rui(siao loong too)…the next step was the make-up…by the time we were ready to leave our home, it was already 5.45…whew…we were late but,who cares since we’ve won the war and everyone that emerged from the house were like butterflies breaking out of their cocoon…
  Had lots and lots of fun during  course night…some might say that we were "syok sendiri" but as long as we had fun, it doesn’t really matter right? The food were moderate but we were kept entertained by the juniors…took lots and lots of photos  today that it was quite amazing that my smile did not get stuck on my face:) can’t wait to get the photos so i can upload some on friendster..anyway, by the time we left bukit jalil i was really kind of high ady…hehe. Next, we went to McD to continue our celebration…again, took photos…really, it’s starting to get addictive
   By the time we ended our celebration and went home, everyone was dead tired…but of course, we weren’t allowed to sleep. We had to remove our make-up and wash our hair. Which is why i’m sitting in front of my laptop writing my blog, waiting for my hair to dry…quick, quickly dry la…i can already feel my eye bag getting bigger and my eyes drooping ady…i guess i better end this post here…and guys?? don’t say that this post is too long, k? ciao…

    Have you ever day dreamt about your perfect peaceful day? I have…and not just my perfect peaceful day..i’ve often found myself daydreaming about my perfect exciting day, happy day, romantic day hehe…even shopping day!! But this segment will be dedicated to my perfect peaceful day since i was just daydreaming about it while doing my KAW essay a few moments earlier… :)   
    my perfect day would be spent on a meadow amidst lots of flowers in bloom…preferably tulips…they look like such happy flowers. Of course, there must be other flowers too…since i’ve heard that tulips don’t carry any fragrance…mayb lilies??  Anyway, the meadow will be full of bright colours with me and a few of my close friends in the middle of it…oh, before i forget, no bees allowed in my perfect day. i don’t want to get stung…the sky will be like something out of a painter’s paint brush…so blue that it seems too good to be true…the temperature will be just right with a slight breeze that will ruffle our hair from time to time…ahh…i’m filled with a kind of longing now…
    No serious discussion will be made during my perfect day…just ordinary, perfectly innane subjects…Little kids will be running around, playing with each other somewhere near the horizons…their laughter brought to our ears by the slight breeze blowing in the air…making us smile and slightly envious of their carefree lives…Lying on our back in a meadow full of flowers, looking at the sky discussing shapes of clouds and happy memories, breathing the smell of flowers and listening to sounds of little children laughing in the distance…that’s my perfect peaceful day
    Anything that i can add to my perfect day? I may have forgotten some of the details actually…i tend to do that a lot when writing my blog…any comment and suggestions will be fully welcomed..